Decisions

Sometimes I think decisions suck. Especially mutually exclusive ones. How can you weigh the pros and cons of uncertainty? Stubborn-ess at the core of selfishness. How can there be a happy ending for all?

In the realistic world, there are unfulfiled dreams. In pursuing some (albeit not knowing if there is a megre possibility that it would come to pass), we have to let go of other things that matter to us.

Of course, nothing is set in stone.

But then again, turning away from some things means turning away from certain possibilities. We cannot have everything.

I want more than you can ever imagine. Right now, I don't know how to get there, and as days go by I am slowly losing faith. Reality bites, people mostly end up as nobodies. Why do we want to have more than we can get?

When I was 17, I wanted the world, but I only saw a speck of sand in a vast desert.
When I was 18, I wanted the continent, but I only saw a blade of grass in a field.
When I was 19, I wanted the country, but I only saw a tree in a forest.
When I was 20, I wanted the city, but all I can see was a single street.
Now I am 21, so young, so full of life, but I see... nothing. Can I even have that single street? I want everything I wanted even when I was 17, but I no longer believe in fairy tales.

Musing. Rather amusing. Bitter. Sweet. Life is.

You never know what the future brings. All's well that ends well. Where the wind blows, that is the path that I will follow.

We always have a choice. Always. Even if it is a hard choice, even if it is a biased choice, we still have a choice.

What will be my choice?