My 21st

I have turned 21. This year I decided to just sit back and not plan a single thing... but I feel so touched that people planned stuff for me :D :D Thank you everyone for making me feel so loved :)

Sharon, Chong, William, Kuan Minn, Joan Wayne, Lip Son, me, Yee Herng, Zhi Jun, Emily, Jane

They know I like korean food, so we went to Straffield (the korean town of sydney) on the 24th. The mudcake they bought for me was delicious :D After that we headed to the city. Alex and Chan Kit joined us. We ended up at the Pancakes on the Rocks. Had pancakes (even though we were so full!), drinks, and just sat around and chat. It was so nice :)

They got me this necklace!!! :D :D :D Thank you so much its so pretty :) And thanks for the card :)

On the 25th....

I went to play badminton like any usual Sunday :)

Then went for lunch with Klement and Jia Jun (thanks guys! :D) After that, hung out at Alex's place and played jimrami (i don't know how you spell this). I met up with Derrick and then headed out to the city for dinner and a movie. :) Oh, and I got pink and black earphones hehe. It was a lovely day. Simple yet so nice. Thank you :)

Yesterday, mail came for me from my sister. She was so thoughtful to send me the world's most random and funniest card. :D Enclosed were also 3 really really pretty earrings all the way from Malaysia. :D Thank you so much jie :) She even called me on my mobile just to chat even though it's damn expensive, but we chatted for so long. It was so nice.

Someone who never ever ever sings to anyone sang me happy birthday :D I was so touched. Thank you hehe :) I'll leave out your name so other people won't ask you to sing for them hahaha =p

Today Phoebe shouted (that means treat or belanja, in Australian slang) me lunch as my birthday present (so sweet of her, thanks!). She gave me a free pass to a movie too :D We had thai food for lunch at coogee, then walked down to the beach for a short while, just lying down on the sand and chilling. It was so nice. Thereafter, we headed off back to uni to study till 10pm. >.<

This was the sand at coogee beach. I swirled a representation of a rose.. for you :)

Thanks for all the wishes, the phone calls, the sms-es, the fb msges. You know who you are, and I definately know who you are :) :) :) I am so touched and I appreciate it all so much. Love all of you so much. xxxooo

Peaceful

Don't you just love this photo? This was taken in Gold Coast when I was there, at around sunset. It mirrors how I feel right now. Calm, peaceful and contented. Life is beautiful =)

Pride

Pride brings about the downfall of men...

But without a certain amount of pride, what are we?
Where else would we get our dignity?
How else can we walk with our heads up high?

There needs to be a balance between pride and humility.
Confidence and modesty.

Do not be a doormat.
Do not let others take advantage of you.

Be proud of who you are and what you can do.
Don't let others bring you down.

Being yourself is the best that you can be.
Believe in that.
And stand tall.

If I want to hate, I can hate so many people. =(
But I am just too tired to do so. I forgive.
I always do.
People take advantage of that.
Am I too nice for my own good?

Slacking queen

I am toying with the idea of watching Wicked... Should I? It's so expensive, but then again.... I really want to watch it!!!

I don't feel like going home right now. What should I do? Bum around some more in the library? That is just so sad man... nothing to do, hang out in the library. -_-" lol

It's oktoberfest tonight at the Roundhouse. The line is so crazy long I'm not bothering to join the queue. What shall I do tonight?

Oh oh, and you know what happened to my contact lenses yesterday? It tore and I left a piece in my eye the whole night without realising till like 10am this morning.... =S

I hope it did no harm.

Ah well, I am in a talkative mood right now. Talk to me!

Personality

I don't care how you look
I don't care how you dress
I don't care how much money you have
I don't care how influential your family is
I don't care if you have a car or a nice house
I don't care about any of these

I want to know what kind of person you are
How you treat the people around you
How you talk to your friends
The things that you treasure
Your hopes and dreams
Your thoughts

Whether you do things for others because you care
Whether you are interested in people because of who they are not what they are
Whether you will sacrifice your time to help the people dear to you
Whether you will go out on your way to make someone who means something feel special
Whether you are nice not just to be courteous but because you are sincere
Whether you take that initiative to try and understand someone else instead of only looking from your own perspective

I care about people for their character.
I don't care about material goods.
I don't care about physical attraction.
I don't care about anything else really but who the person is.

If you cannot understand that then leave.
Since that is what I care about, I expect at least SOME people to think the same way.
If you only care about other stuff then I feel really sorry for your shallowness.
For I am much deeper than that.

And just a note, I am an independent person with a mind of my own so don't try to dictate how I think and what I do because that is an insult to my intelligence.

Logic makes the world go round

It's ironic how sometimes you do things, fully aware of the circumstances and the way things are done, and yet unexpectedly the consequences on your emotional well-being knocks you off your feet. You are unprepared for the side effects, and you spend days trying to find the logic of it. You want to forget about it, but it just doesn't want to be forgotten. Every time you close your eyes, every time you take a deep breath, every time you listen to a song, every time you lie back and sink into the soft covers, the images flash across.

You don't wanna think about it, and yet it still hurts you. You never expected to feel anything. You are surprised. You appear cool and calm and indifferent. Yet at odd occasions, you suddenly experience waves of extreme sadness, triggered by no apparent reason. You never imagined it would even affect you in any way.

You don't even want to think if you've lost anything. You don't feel sorry for yourself. You don't even care.

You don't expect anything, but I guess you just want to be treated like you matter. You don't expect anything special, all you need is something slightly more than obligatory civil-ness.

I still write in 2nd person when it should be in 1st. It always feels more impersonal when I do that.

I am a friend, not a rock. I am not made of stone, although you may be. Cold.