Thank you

To all my dearest friends (including those not in the pic),

Thank you for motivating me, caring about me, being there for me, listening to me, supporting me, and believing in me.

Without you, I would not be who I am today, and I would not have this much strength to go on to chase my dreams.

I thought that I would have a very lonely and depressing winter. I guess I always worry too much and am too negative because it most certainly isn't so.

Thank you for making me feel like I mean something. For that I will always be grateful for.

I treasure each and every one of you. For all the times that I felt alone, I was wrong. I now take comfort in knowing that I have so many wonderful people who are there for me.

Thank you so much. I will always cherish these friendships.

Waking up

I woke up to my temporary roommate's ringtone.

And you know what her ringtone is??

Right here waiting for you. 0.0

I wanna go back to sleep.

Ramblings

On my way to uni for exam, I was waiting at the traffic light and then I realised that the view above might look good on camera. Had my phone with me so I captured this. Don't know anything about photography, but I like this photo. =) Sydney's skies always look so clear and blue when it's a sunny day that it is almost surreal.

Yesterday I was out in the city. Watched terminator =D And saw a possum!

The possum

Exams are over. Winter vacation starts today.

Had a job interview today. This is the aftermath of walking around in those black shoes. =( I wore SOCKS and they were flats. Yes, that's blood you see there. 0_0 Shocked me.

I need a job.

Fusion

Extreme emotions meet in the middle. Like how hot and cold winds cause hurricanes when they meet in the middle, that's what two opposite ends of emotions churn out when they collide.

I feel so stupid for feeling like this.

Been going out and just chilling out. Had fun.

But when I come back at night it comes back to me over and over. I know it's not really my fault but I keep thinking that it is. I keep thinking if I did things differently, it won't be this way. I keep blaming myself.

Miss so much. So so so much.

Through the tears

I woke up this morning with bloodshot eyes. 0_0

But I am fine. =) It was good to iron things out and although the obvious conclusion came with some reluctance, I still appreciate that there was something special. And I'll always look back and cherish that fact.

Misunderstandings. I guess it brought us to the inevitable, which would eventually come anyway but I still wish it wasn't so soon. I'm glad we both understand now but it's a bittersweet kind of gladness if you know what I mean. Or maybe it's more of being ripped apart.

I was just walking around the city aimlessly just now. Had a day's job supervising and interviewing people for the occupational english test. It was good weather today, not so cold, so I strolled around. Finally found my way to The Rocks at Circular Quay. I just sat down on one of the benches while listening to music and stared out across the harbour at the opera house and the lights and the water waves. Captured that with my phone and wanted to send it to you but my MMS couldnt work. And then my phone went haywire. =S Electronic devices really have something against me. Vehemently denies the fact that I dropped the phone. =p

I am still recovering. It feels a lot better and yet it still tears me up inside. How does one turn away when one feels like this?

The time when one wants to hold on to something the most is the time to let it go.

Fly free. You always said you just want me to be happy.

I just want YOU to be happy.

Tired

Is it lost?

Not knowing. Not understanding.

I would rather be in the harsh light than in the unknown dark. At least then I am able to see.

Emo

Thank you for the memories.

I cherish.
You.
Now,
Always.

Listening to sad songs in the middle of the night. Haunting.

Wishing upon a star

When you wish upon a star

makes no difference who you are

anything your heart desires will come to you

Disney's when you wish upon a star has got me wishing upon a star
The only question is, what is my heart's desire?
Help me figure out what I really want.

Interesting

Putting feelings in words is hard. Found this picture that depicts EXACTLY how I feel.

Ah the intricacies of life. No one can judge a situation the way it really is.

Sorry

All the whispers of the past
They come back to haunt me, haunt me
In the silence of the night
They come back to haunt me, haunt me.

I know I know I know that this
This is everything I could ask for
And yet as always as always
I throw it back and run away

I'm too scared to admit it
Too tied down by the chains of the past
Too confused to see clarity
Too messed up to understand

Everything I could ask for
Everything I could want

Except for time. Except for place.

History repeats.
Different time, different place, different people.
But this time it is different.
This time I don't want it to go.
This time I'm still holding on.

I am still holding on.

Thanks for understanding. Even though I don't deserve it. I will make it up to you. Somehow.

=(

I am the worst person alive on this planet.

Shoot me.

Officially last day to slack

I've finished my assignments at leisure speed. Early. =) Presentations done. All I need to do is hand them up.

I will turn to geek mode, probably tomorrow. At leisure speed. =p

Randomly speaking, all of us have a form of innate emptiness inside of us that needs satisfying. When in absence of that something, one feels hollow. Yet we don't feel that hollowness before its filled, but once it is, we find it hard to adjust back to that emptiness.

But when it's always been empty, and then it's filled, it's like heaven on earth.

An illusion? Maybe.

What I do when I have an unexpected break

Class finished an hour early. If I knew, I would just have slept in, instead of coming half an hour late.

So what do I do when I have an extra hour before my next class?

I buy a cup of mocha coffee.
I eat my packed breakfast/lunch.
I bum around outside the lecture theatre for awhile before getting bored.
I find a computer and check my mail.
I blog when I have nothing to say.
I send a text that says morning to someone. :)
I wait for the one hour to pass.

What a waste of time. Like I couldn't do anything more productive.

This is the last week of the semester. Can't believe time flies so fast. Doesn't feel like I made the most of it. Should be doing more.

Like...

Socialise more haha.

Cheers!!