Of shattered dreams

A mixture of guilt and want and disappointment, of confusion, of dilemma and at the same time of responsibility. The feeling is dilapidating and its crushing me. Of shattered dreams like shards of glass piercing through every fiber of my being. I am not a child, trying to shield me won't cause anything but disappointment. False hope is just stupid.

It feels as though everything I worked for, all the time spent, all the effort. It's just a bloody waste of time.

I don't have the heart to carry on with as much fervour as before. All of it, it all seems so redundant right now.

I'm just so tired of chasing dreams.

90 million children have no access to education. Every second someone drops dead somewhere in the world. Every few seconds someone gets killed. With a death rate of 826 per 100,000, I'm lucky to just be alive.

I don't have a right to be upset. And yet I am. Every ounce of strength has been extinguished. I am just so bloody tired of it all.

Help me through the next few weeks.

The skies smile down upon us

Venus, jupiter and the moon makes a smiling face in the sky tonight.

By the time I thought about taking my camera down for a photo, the sight was no longer there to behold.

But trust me, it was simply

beautiful =)

I have your heart in my hands

Physiology lab is refreshingly fun lately. A few weeks ago, we dissected chicken hearts. Then we get to play doctor-patient with real equipment. Last week, we tested our own urine. We went to collect the samples with beakers. It was really amusing. I didn't want my camera to get contaminated with erm waste products, so there's no pictures of the urine tests =p. Nevertheless, did my own mini health check, and everything seems just fine. =) Which is reassuring as I have never had a medical check up.

You know the phrase I have your heart in my hands? Take it literally.

This is a real syringe, no joke.

Finding the vein on Mr Adam's hand is much harder than it looksFinally, after many many failed attempts (poor Mr Adam!), I finally drew "blood"!!! Whoopee!

Had to take this pic rather discreetly

Dr Lim and patient Fred. Is your blood pressure within the normal range?

Emcee day

Today has been a good day. =) This is probably the first time I have attended a public speaking competition not as a competitor. It's a bit nostalgic as I think back the previous experiences I had, both is secondary school and in college. I had fun being the emcee with David, and the speeches were enjoyable. Congrats Phraveen for clinching the best speaker award. You were top notch today! =) Simply awesome.

I am craving for something more than just living each day as it is. I am so free right now, albeit a heavy academic schedule. Ok, I have a huge stack of undone work, but still, something is missing. I need something to work for, something to pour my heart and soul into, and to reap satisfaction. I need a competition! And a full blown one that takes lots of hard work and sleepless nights. x_x

Was very cheerful all day, despite having just a few hours of sleep last night. A comment by a friend got me thinking. Life is short, the people around us will not be stagnant in the same way as time goes by. We have to seize each and every day and make it matter. For it is who is around us that shapes a huge part of what we are. Every short while, new people step into our lives, and every once in awhile we realise how much the people who are already a part of our lives mean.

"You are always cheerful" she said. Hardly so, but that sentence has a nice ring to it. I think I should be. It feels so much better this way.

Purpose

Do you have a purpose?

Do you have a dream?

Do you have a reason?

Or have they all become past tense?

Drosophila DEAD

Apparently, I didn't put enough yeast, and my Drosphila offspring starved to death. I was supposed to kill them, but they died on me. lol. It was awfully hard to take the dead flies out, as many of them were stuck to the agar medium. I had to scoop them up with the agar, and it was all sticky and difficult to separate. Furthermore, my Drosophilla were undersized. Guess they were malnutritioned. Who was that who told me, just a little yeast will do the job?!

Nevertheless, all I had to do was to count the number or males and females, so no essential data was lost.

Someone seemed to have changed a little. It's becoming quite nice being around this changed person. Thumbs up!

We are only 0.1 % different

Our beloved K4 tutorial group. We may have changed in name, and we may be all different people of different personalities but no matter what, we are only 0.1 % different as all of us share 99.9% of the same DNA. Thumbs up to Nan En, former K4 who suggested this slogan as we were studying forensic biology in our final semester of the diploma year. Now in our third year (year one Advanced Dip), we wore the t-shirts we custom made, and took photos outside the library while waiting, and also after taking the official course/group photos.

How we have grown since year one sem one. I am indeed proud to be part of such an amazing group. I have found the greatest bunch of friends here. Love you guys!! =D

Bi Hun, Pay Jing, Leaf, Syn Dee, Hui Lu, Shi Wenn, Me, Tracey

Candid shot before the photo taking

We are united!

Haha, Tracey, the sun too strong for your delicate eyes? :P

Is that a bird? Is that a plane? No... its..... super K4-ians!!!! Ok, fine so we are in A3 now. But once a K4-ian, always a K4-ian. =D