Hero of war - Rise Against

I just heard this awesome song that you HAVE to listen to. Listen closely to the lyrics, feel the layers of emotions in this song. I don't remember another time when a song made me so moved. This is the best song I have heard in years. Hauntingly melancholic.

Hero Of War


He said, �Son,
Have you see the world?
Well, what would you say
If I said that you could?
Just carry this gun and you�ll even get paid.�
I said, �That sounds pretty good.�

Black leather boots
Spit-shined so bright
They cut off my hair but it looked alright
We marched and we sang
We all became friends
As we learned how to fight

A hero of war
Yeah that�s what I�ll be
And when I come home
They�ll be damn proud of me
I�ll carry this flag
To the grave if I must
Because it�s flag that I love
And a flag that I trust

I kicked in the door
I yelled my commands
The children, they cried
But I got my man
We took him away
A bag over his face
From his family and his friends

They took off his clothes
They pissed in his hands
I told them to stop
But then I joined in
We beat him with guns
And batons not just once
But again and again

A hero of war
Yeah that�s what I�ll be
And when I come home
They�ll be damn proud of me
I�ll carry this flag
To the grave if I must
Because it�s flag that I love
And a flag that I trust

She walked through bullets and haze
I asked her to stop
I begged her to stay
But she pressed on
So I lifted my gun
And I fired away

The shells jumped through the smoke
And into the sand
That the blood now had soaked
She collapsed with a flag in her hand
A flag white as snow

A hero of war
Is that what they see
Just medals and scars
So damn proud of me
And I brought home that flag
Now it gathers dust
But it�s a flag that I love
It�s the only flag I trust

He said, �Son, have you seen the world?
Well what would you say, if I said that you could?�

Erratic

Incurably fickle-minded. How come I feel different today as compared to yesterday? What would I be thinking tomorrow?

I am never sure about things.

But the night is beautiful today. I suddenly have Blue Night, by MLTR in my head. This was the song I sang in form one. My singing has always sucked, and I was terrified that we had to sing solo in front of the entire class. I was so certain that people would laugh at me because I tend to sing out-of-tune.

I sang Blue Night softly, a far cry from my usual ability for voice projection. And not a single person laughed. (maybe they couldn't hear me? lol)

But listening to that song on youtube tonight MLTR - Blue Night, it just stirs some form of feelings inside of me that I can't place. Current mood = loving :)

Fade away

It is fading away, as surely as the autumn leaves are changing colour and falling.

Old habits die hard

I said that I'll start going to bed earlier. Don't see that happening anytime soon.

My to-do list: Two 3000 word assignments, one 1000 word report, 2 presentations, 1 take home exam (coming soon). I still feel very free. =p 3 more weeks left of the semester. Can't believe I've been here for almost a semester. Feels like just yesterday when I was contemplating whether to come to Sydney or not. You were right, I worry too much. =)

I am still sadly unemployed lol. Yeah yeah I know I'm not trying hard enough.

People complain I have too many words in my posts, and I should add more photos.

So here goes. I dare you to lick this plate.

Lick it. Lick it. Lick it.

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

What?

I don't have any other relevant photos k

What can I say

I'm just a boring science student.

ps. who dares to do that get back to me, lunch will be my treat!

A year ago down memory lane

Yesterday a year ago....

Elizabeth, Dominic, Zhen Han. Meiyi, Eric. Pretib, Boey, Ronnie.

Young Entreprenuer's awards finals
The day we WON the trip to HONG KONG!!!!!!!

It has been a whole freaking year since then!!! Since the busiest ever time of my life. The most stressful, yet the most fulfilling. The finals of the Malaysian HSBC Young Entrepreneur's awards marked the end of my crazily busy period, juggling exam finals, public speaking, scholarship applications, this business plan thing (and a social life lol coz it was the last semester of diploma, and some people were going off to a different uni), after this day, I finally could start resting. It was thus followed by a long period of bumming around haha. I found the blog post on just how busy I was. I am so so so so proud of myself that I did make it work. =) It shows that any average person can do ANYTHING as long as we set our minds to it.

But this is not a blog post about me. This is a blog post about other people. I am really really grateful to all the people who supported and encouraged me at that time. Without your support, I wouldn't have done as well as I did. Without your support, I wouldn't have that much strength to pull through. Without your support, I would not have been able to find the confidence that made that much of a difference. Without your support, I doubt I would have been able to do all that. You know who you are. =) My friends, my family, and also the few lecturers that gave me the moral support I needed. I would blog about you too, but not today. =) soon, soon.

First and foremost of course the BEST EVER TEAMMATE!!!! Eric... creative, enthusiastic, smart, and produces the highest quality work ever!! (apart from me hahaha). Thank you for the moral support during this time with all my other endeavours, and it was awesome working with you my dear competition friend. Your enthusiasm and spirit kept mine up. TEAM SPIRIT =) Now in Wales, this soon to be lawyer I am so so so so so so proud to call my friend. Never would there be another competition friend like Eric. =)

Next....

Not to play favourites hehe but the truth was... the hong kong trip that followed in June was probably one of the best times of my life because of......

THE BRONZE TEAM =)

Pretib. Ah, the memories =) Pretib is a really nice guy, always with something sweet to say (or at least to me hahahahahahah) =p Remember when we were going back to KL Sentral from the airport after coming back from hong kong? lol coz Pretib was dragging my luggage bag for me everywhere i TOTALLY forgot to get my bag when I got off the train hahaha. If he didn't say "where's your luggage", I don't know when would I finally realise. hehe probably that's an after effect of the last night in hong kong, hmmm? =p

Ronnie!!! The entertainer hahaha. You will never, ever, ever get bored around Ronnie. He's a very easy person to get along with, a really nice person too. It was so fun posing for all those photographs!!! We were crazy for the camera in hong kong, don't ask me why, but that was just so much fun!!!

Boey!!! lol it's a highly unflattering photo, but I find it so funny. Boey almost never just smiles at the camera, he makes all sorts of faces. LOL I bet almost all the photos I have of him in my camera are all funny faces. x_x Just so happened that both the depart and return flights he sat beside me, so it was a nice way to get to know a then-new friend =)

And of course not forgetting....

Andrew!!! He's the organiser for the Malaysian portion of the competition, and let me tell you, Hong Kong was damn fun coz our chaperone (him) was a really fun person to be around. He wasn't LIKE an organiser, all stiff and formal, but he was really one of us. And he did such a wonderful job as an organiser too. =)

Ee Loo from the Star. =) Ee Loo LOVES SaSa!!!! And clubbing =p hehehehe Sweet, sweet person she is... and we had so much fun!!!. Ee Loo will NOT take a photo without putting on lip gloss first. hahahaha

The Malaysian Contingent

Songs, words, smiles.

It just brings a smile to my face. A silly smile that I can't wipe away. Loneliness dissolves in an instant, as the stars lend brilliance to the blanket of dark skies. It may be only words, but words can be the most moving thing in this world. And the songs too, I've never felt so warm before.

Tonight is a beautiful night. Walking in the chilly atmosphere just past twilight, I noticed the moon rising low just above the horizon. It was round and large and so beautiful. In the day, I noticed the leaves are turning yellow, orange, red, brown, while not all patches of green have disappeared. It's such a sight to behold that I couldn't help taking a photo (even though I probably looked silly haha).

My first autumn.

You make my day =)

It's not just reading down, it's also reading upwards.

You know you shouldn't

I mean I know I sh0uldn't.

How does one describe it when one doesn't understand it? How does one understand when one cannot explain it? Why do things happen as they do? Why do people still go on their way doing things that they know will only lead on to inevitable results that they know they will not be able to take very well?

I had a bad day. I feel crappy tonight. I'm guessing I'm paying for offending people without meaning to, paying for not treasuring friendship, paying for being selfish, paying for gossiping.

I keep coughing at night. It goes away in the day but comes back at night.

My mid terms are crappy too.

Swirls of colours.. impeding vision

Plethora of insecurity
Unfamiliarity
Need reassurance

Cutting one off
Feeling sorry
Yet knowing its right

It's goodbye.

Selfishness
Selflessness
A paradoxical mix

Replacement?
Denial.
In a fix

Don't want to think
Don't want to analyse

Forget the past
Don't think of the future
It doesn't matter

Or does it?

If the skies could talk, what would they say about me?

Unofficially....

First thing in my mind in the mornings,
Last thing on my mind at night,
Always in my thoughts in between.

Impulsive thinking
Impulsive actions
I'm worried

How long will this drug last?
If you're addicted
I think I'm 10 times as addicted

Just that I don't say it

Scorpios are jealous and possessive. I wonder why this scorpio came up with this. Might end up stinging herself.

Don't want to think.